pointless points.

it’s 7am on a sunday morning. the sun is fully out and birds are chirping right outside my window as i type. no, i’m not up early. i just haven’t slept.

i went to bed about 3 hours ago, but i was thinking about how little time i have left and my heart started beating real quick and i got up and decided to start on my crazy essay which is untouched. right now, i’ve still yet to decide on a topic because: it’s so bloody hard to decide on a topic when everything is foreign to you, and the task seems quite impossible that it’s extremely daunting and ive been putting it off for ages, and i’m in a dilemna where what i want to write about is not what i’m really interested in. argh – how!

i’m not sure if i can write many thousands of words on why US should, or should not join the ICC. i’m really wanting to write about the tokyo tribunal, which i’m more passionate about (maybe because i was born in a country that was under the Japanese occupation and history tells me that it wasn’t very pleasant). however, i’d have to read the whole damn judgment, which is more than a thousand pages long, to begin with, and i’m not sure if i have the time right now to do so. and, given my lack of knowledge on the nuremberg trial, i couldn’t write a proper in-depth essay because it lacks that point of comparison. so maybe, i’m thinking given the time constrains, i should just stick to what i was going to write about and figure out how to write many thousand words on it (and try to get excited about it).

so because the task is my mount everest and i’m not geared up, i springclean the house. it’s nice and dustless, for now.

maybe the next thing to do is to go to bed now.