rant.

i’m incredibly behind schedule right now, but then again, what’s new, right? i’m the queen of proscrastination, really.
it’s hot and the air is stale outside, and the computer lab is stuffy and ill-ventilated, thanks to the illogical decisions made by the architectures and builders who built this place. i’m not gonna say much more about [...]

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unreal.

so i’m extremely stressed, and somehow food is comforting, almost.
i baked banana muffins and cooked all my meals today in attempt to appease my panicked heart. it clearly was only a temporary fix. CL was feeling unwell and napping on the couch, and though there wasn’t much interaction there (because clearly, he’s asleep), it was [...]

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out of it.

distracted and off the ball.
kick me in the butt.

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my amazing mom.

i feel exhausted just by watching my mom go about her day. she wakes up at 6am to take my littlest sis to school, gets to work by 8am, knocks off at 7pm (if she’s lucky), hits the gym for an hour (if she has the energy), gets home, has dinner, checks on littlest sis’ [...]

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this is a pain in my neck.

CL used to tell me about how he used to have pain at the base of his head, and all the way down his neck. it was supposedly the pinching of the nerves or muscles or something like that. i didn’t know how that felt like, despite me saying “oh i’m so sorry sweets” and [...]

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one of the many firsts.

i decided to stay away from writing until i had things figured out, but i realised that writing helps me figure things out. i’m still in the process of all that productive-get-me-in-the-right-direction thing, but for now, let me share the story of my first bouquet of flowers.
you see, as much as i like beautiful things, [...]

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back later.

my sporadic posts of late aren’t fantastic, because i didn’t write with my heart – i wrote with my head. i’ve been thinking heaps lately and am not in the best shape (emotionally, mentally, physically) in life. surely, i knew something wasn’t right, and i think it fueled those thoughts and it just became a [...]

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she.

i say the very same things to and about her. she’s young, and stupid. she goes way out for him, prioritizes him over the family, and takes his word as gold. endless amount of talk and advice seemingly did nothing, and it might even exacerbated the issue. i was never happy about her ways, but [...]

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internet: friend or foe?

interestingly, internet came about in 1969, when the military put their brains together and tried to come up with a better way of communication after having a nuclear attack. of course, internet was not named as such back then, and communication and technology was not even on par as today. read more about how it [...]

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Protected: quit it.

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