icc – no, i don’t really see.

i’m freaking out. i went to class today and found out that i had to give a presentation in a few days about the essay i’m writing. thing is, i haven’t decided on a topic, because i’m extremely lost in this subject, and i want to bawl my eyes out just thinking about it!

the class saw a movie today on the ICC, and it was really good. the intents behind the creation of the ICC, the overwhelming support for the court and how it worked was theory put into action. despite the innumerable confusing(to me, at least) and perplexing ideas and notions about law and justice and the works, i understood the point of the movie and made sense of the idea of the ICC. but i’m still lost. aren’t you?

i want to just go to bed right now and pretend to sleep, just so that i can run away for tonight and pretend that life is still good. my phone beeped past midnight and i was reminded again that i’m a year older today. great. what a fantastic birthday present eh. i had to cancel lunch (one which has been due for months now) tomorrow, because it’s going to be a i’m-on-the-brink-of-madness-and-fear day and how lovely that it coincides with my birthday. not that i give two hoots about it, since i forgot anyways. but the principle of it still stands.

given that i’ll spend friday night drunk, saturday morning hungover and CSK hen’s night is on saturday (which i presume i’ll be inebriated too), i don’t have very much time to come up with something brilliant, which i must, by the weekend. this class albeit fast-paced and confusing, is actually quite intellectual (maybe that’s why i’m confused. i’m not smart enough? that’s a sad realization) and challenging. the lecturer is intelligent and so are his students (but me. okay, all this negative talk is helping no one!), and i’m supposed to dazzle them with a stimulating and wonderful presentation and then have a discussion about my supposed-amazingly-well-thought-out topic for ten minutes.

can you tell i’m freaking out? cos i am.

okay i’m going to hide under my covers now.