[un]changed.

my butt is still numb as i stay seated, scrolling through pages filled with blurry words that are not making any sense to me. yes, i should be done by now, but unfortunately for me, i’m not.
i went to the computer lab in the evening for a few hours, in hope that a change of [...]

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you know it’s bedtime

when you hear nothing at all.
it is quiet outside except for the occasional car speeding by, most likely to get to bed. whilst my knees hurt from the awkward albeit comfortable sitting position that i’m in trying to produce something that’s hopefully better than a lousy excuse for an essay, CL is out enjoying beer [...]

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cranky.

i’m frustrated, annoyed, pissed off, irritated, cbf; almost.
it is in times like this when i want to translate my emotions into physical acts. i would then want to punch something, or break something, somehow believing that doing those acts would relieve me of the building tension. but it is in times like this when i [...]

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why i should go to the gym.

1. so i can go to sleep at night when my head hits the pillow, and avoid the two or so hours that i lie awake on other days which i don’t hit the gym, trying to sleep
2. membership is paid for and there isn’t a refund for that
3. so that i can fit into [...]

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if you could choose your gender?

my eyes are still half-closed and i’m feeling groggy. my lecturer has not replied my email from the weekend, i suspect he thinks i’m trying to squeeze out too much from him and wants me to do the work myself, though i’m going to email him again and give it another shot.
when CL gave me [...]

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do opposites really attract?

i once heard from this girl, that opposites are the way to go for long lasting relationships. because apparently, people who are too similar do not gain much from each other and the initial attraction would fade away over time. i personally thought that she was a load of crap, and simply saying that as [...]

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*just for laughs!
Getting married is very much like going to a restaurant with friends. You order what you want, and then when you see what the other person has, you wish you had ordered that.
Why do couples hold hands during their wedding?It’s a formality just like two boxers shaking hands before the fight begins!
Is [...]

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drowning silence at midnight.

it’s 20 past midnight right now, and the whole house is so quiet i think i can hear a leaf fall to the ground somewhere outside in the cold. i’m (almost) in panic mode because i’ve got a ton of essays and have yet to formulate a decent question of interest in the suggested broad [...]

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as i get older…

my body processes the food i eat so slowly now it’s unbelievable. i don’t mean the food-to-shit process, but rather, my metabolism. years ago, i remember when i lived with two other girls, we used to indulge in dairy foods and fried crap all the time, going out for suppers, cleaning up the cream from slices [...]

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i screwed up.

i did, bigtime. i hurt someone i love deeply, and in turn, hurt myself. it’s irreversible and the damage is done, and it was amazing how much tears that pain brought about – but i still didn’t feel any better. but you know, crying to make myself feel better wasn’t the point, really. i cried [...]

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