all i want to do

is lie in bed all day and do nothing.

i feel like crap, literally. it’s been two weeks since my ribs are hurting me, and the pain has yet to diminish. the doc said that it should go in a week, but it’s been wayy longer than that and i’m frustrated. my stomach has also been acting up, which isn’t something new since i’ve known from when i was young that i’ve got a weak stomach and suffer from IBS. on top of that, i’m anaemic and i’ve been feeling nauseous and faint. so put all that together and living along (which means having to take care of all my meals, cleaning and whatnots) – i’m tired.

it’s not that i’m complaining being alone, after all, i’ve done it for so many years since leaving home. when i used to fall ill (which isn’t very often thankfully, i’ve got a pretty strong immune system), i had to deal with it and get over it by myself. you know how some people have got their siblings, or their partners, or their close friends to take care of them, bring them congee and medicine? yep. i do all that for me when i’m sick. i’m fine with that. i think the reason why i’m feeling more annoyed this time around is because i have no control over the pain of my ribs. i’m not fussed over the other ailments, because i can deal with that and i can tell when i’m recovering. but this? everytime i cough, sneeze, laugh, sit up straight etc. i can’t even lay on my side when i’m trying to get to sleep!

ugh. i need some lovin’.